Hi Mel,
I know its been awhile but ive been really busy. I miss you. Steven and i are still doing well but ive been thinking alot and ive come to a lose of words to be honest, black friday is coming up and im flat broke. PLain out flat broke! but i know acouple things that i have a man that loves me, a nice cozy place to live and i have a job that keeps me above water, most of the time the most important things is, is that i havent forgotten you i still love you as much as the day i first knew you exsisted. I miss you more than anyone on the planet could possibliy miss someone. MY boy friend doesnt know it but he reminds me sooo much of you its almost impossible to deal with, his choice of music, the way he talks, the things he does just to make me mad and then laugh at me about it.
It constantly amazes me how the slightiest things remind of you thoughout the days, that seem so dull and weiry but a small shadow of your light brings a smile to my face in the lightest most possible ways. You Mel made me how i am today; a small but mighty strong independent women, who has completely fallen for a soldier. Just like you, didnt plan it but it happened Mel and its been the best thing that happened to me since you, thats whats so fun about all this.....its new and exciting and bright and this new begining means the world to me. I know you always said i would never need a man, but Mel this man brings out the me Ive always been but couldnt be without him. Ya know? am i insane for thinking this way....
I think you would smile and say you silly completely mad girl, but you would know exactly how i felt and would understand the torment i was feeling. I wish you were here to teach me how to be the best army wife, girl friend i could possibilt be. I wish i had your stength even an ounce of it, then i know i would be everything he wanted and exactly what he needed :)
Anyway i just wanted to tell you about that but i love you Mel,
Your amazing loving sister,
Becca